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Friday, November 23, 2007

tres

The folowing paragraph is a statement. a statement of my souls emancipation. I wrote it in haste, and have yet to disect fully what i have hidden in its lines. I know however, that in writing this i am releasing myself I have set myself free from the chains of fear and self consciousness. Those of you who know me, know that i am a furry, and also know that it has caused a great deal of problems in my relationships to old friends. I have been keeping this a secret for a long time, and i have been trying to hide it from myself for longer. Regardless of what is being said about me, behind or in front of me. I am done. I am through hiding, and this is my proclamation of freedom. Go ahead and read it.
Okay, heres the deal. I've been hiding something from those who are close to me for some time. I feel disconnected and separated because if it... and this week ends it, regardless of socio political ramifications. Many of you know what a furry is, and think they are "furfags" who should "yiff in hell". well now you know a furry. and you know it. I have been hiding this for years and I'm ending this NOW. i have always been afraid of what people would think, so i hid it. I've been in the proverbial closet about this. From the keyhole in the door to the closet i have seen the way many would treat me if they knew, and i feel like every breath i take is a blatant lie about who i am, what i am, and the way i see the world. I hid, still as could be, and yet some found out. so i adopted a circle, consisting of about three people who i feel i can speak freely to about this. unfortunately One of these people would potentially use it against me, and thus i was taken advantage of. I'm sick of living a lie, i have been dropping hint, and showing the word a glimpse of my true being, but most think I'm just odd. Its Over Now. Ive grown tired of feeling distant and unconnected. It tortures me day and night and i have the scars to show. Now i stand, revealed, without my black veil, without my mask, totally naked and true. Hear me now, you may hate this exposed side of my being, so be it. I simply cannot hid myself anymore. I am a furry, I am the zeta male. I hold my own beliefs, i am my own person and you are done keeping me down.

Now i am outed. I am hiding no more and I feel free. If there is one thing that can crush the soul that has been placed in my body, its being kept down by secrets. And now they're out. So feel free, as I am free, and i will feel this pain no longer.

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